I have a semi-date tomorrow. I met this guy about a month ago and we haven't officially declared any kind of non-platonic chemistry between the two of us. I am trying my hardest to get that fabrication out of my head. For as long as I can remember, I tend to like a guy from afar, latch myself to them (from afar) and fabricate this image of them. And it only gets worse; I never am able to get close to them thus I punish myself with guilt and sorrow and every other kind of negativity I can think of.
So here I am, trying to heal my wounds from my "flavor of the month" and R comes along. I don't know what to expect and in all honesty, I don't even know if I like him. I am hesitant to say anything b/c maybe he is in the same predicament I am: he is getting over someone. I decide I am taking it for what it is and I am not going to jump to conclusions. Jumping to conclusions has only created problems and heart ache for me; I think it is time to start a new approach to conversing with the opposite sex.
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